Saturday, June 12, 2010


I haven't written in awhile. Yes, I have been busy with work, but mostly I've been afraid. Somewhere on facebook, I saw a discussion about (of course!) birth and one mother mentioned something frightening about her c-section. This mother had been convinced by her OB that she was in an emergent, dangerous situation and needed what she believed was an emergency cesarean. Later, this mother reviewed her medical records and saw the word "elective" instead of emergency.

I haven't been able to sleep since. I am so terrified to even request my records. What if mine reflect the same thing? When I've tried to talk to some friends about this, they typically say, "What's the difference?" How do I begin to explain the wide, wide world of difference there?

The fear that my surgery was an unneccessarian has been clouding my ability to think. I am trying to summon up the courage to call Magee and snag a copy of my medical record. I don't think I can read it alone. I think it's important to know, though, what it says about me, right? Why should I let someone else tell my story without my input or knowledge? But what can I do if I disagree with the story it tells?

1 comment:

  1. You made me curious, so I pulled out mine and read it and I don't see anything anywhere about it being elective or emergency. You may not even have it in your report either.

    It also makes me wonder if it means elective in the sense that all of us that care about VBACs and such talk about elective vs. emergency or if there is some medical use of it, maybe just implying that she was able to decide and sign for herself, not someone making the decision for her... I know its a stretch, but I was just trying to think of some reason they would call it elective after making her think it was an emergency situation.